I find it so strange when Singapore glorifies things that they do not take part in nuturing.

1) Ashley Isham
He had to go to London to create a fashion line, slog it out to become famous. And now, he is so 'revered' in Singapore? He clearly worked his ass off in London and obviously Singapore did not fund or create any seeds of creativity to entice him to stay in the sunny island to start his fashion career.

2) Stefanie Sun
She was great in Taiwan. Hell, we didn't hear about her until we saw her in Taiwan and until she was based there and returned back to singapore to promote her album.

3) the Capture of Mas Selamat
YES, our only input was to let him free so that the Malaysian Police could recapture him.

funny how the best and worst of our academic cohort leaves the country. not so different, are we?

I am disgusted.

Clinton defends abortion right worldwide
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090423/tts-us-diplomacy-women-972e412.html

I am utterly disgusted. Abortion does not solve anything.

Family Planning, Teenage Pregnancy could be avoided. Abortion is not the solution, abortion is a way out, it does not seek to solve anything.

Questions with Answers

How do I start studying?I have no idea.

What is the worse thing to ask a bride? 'What are you doing now?'

The worse vice in my life. SCV.

Carthaginian Peace

That is what I am imposing on her.

Sporting Events

Was supporting Jen in Strongman 2009. It made me realise that there are different types of people in a sporting event.
There are the sportsmen, the press, the invited guests, the WAGs, the curious people in the crowd and the rest - the mob.

Yesterday, I found out which section I belong to. I belong to the mob. I somehow understand why football supporters can end up fighting one another. I was THAT close to pounding the guy standing next to me. They knew we were supporting Jen but they kept commenting loudly how Zdnek was better. This began Stef's staredown (which lasted a few seconds. those boys cannot hold a candle to my formidable staring! i practice, you know.) Followed by the 'no-negotiation chinese space taking'. Cut the long story short, I was VERY close to giving the guy next to me a wedgie. I even planned who could take the guys down. It goes: Dawn and DD would tackle the really big and tall guy - this is called the david and goliath tactic. Liting would take wedgie guy out and I would PERSONALLY handle the guy who speaks loudly on how Jen is not as good as Zednek. I even told Liting "THIS IS SPARTA!!!!!!!!!!"

Anyway, because of the abovementioned feelings, as well as cheering the loudest to get freebies (i got a lot of Freebies) made me realise how the mod mentality worked.

I realised who Mark Antony managed to turn the crowd against Brutus and Cassius in just one speech. When the mob is moving towards one goal, all social, intellectual misunderstanding would be erased and we would only move with one goal in mind - to win!

YES, I AM THE MOB!!!!!

Let Sleeping Dogs Lie

I believe I need anger management class. Or at least have some sort of class to teach me the positive aspects of people I dislike.

I told Liting that it was probably my mountain to climb. I think it is not far from it. As in, when I have a negative impression on someone, usually I won't be negative until I actually work with that person. So I am ok with most people. Occasionally i get irritated, but not to the extent of disliking a person.

But when there is someone that I really dislike, the mere sight of the person disgusts me. I don't know. it could just be me.

URGHHHHHHHHH!!
I am sorry for messing up your life. But I don't care. I hope everyone sees the real person behind the mask.
The irresponsible, proud, disrespectful individual that you are.

At this moment, I know that God loves you and he loves you much more than I do.
Sorry God and friends. I don't quite understand this irrational hatred but it happens. I will try to be a better person. For our sake, I hope she is one too.

Gonna be a better Christian.

Paul Paul Paul.

I am worried for full run later. I am worried that I won't do well, that i would forget my lines. That casey would tell me that I am the weakest again.

Scene 3,4 and 5 --> volume equals emotional intensity.
scene1 --> loving

all scenes, not easy.

I don't like Paul. He makes me Emo. He makes me so tired after each rehearsal.

But i believe i have improved since the last half run. Determined not to have comments such as, " I was not convinced by Stef, and her hands are all over the place." remarks anymore. Not from people who have not been going for rehearsals and not see all the blood, sweat and tears that result from the rehearsals.

I REALLY am trying. I don't know how to process it other than intellectualizing. It seems like no one understands that. When I say I am stuck, I have absolutely no idea what to do. I don't know.

Let's be optimistic. Let's be sunshine and happiness. No one wants to see the bad anyway.